a bit worse
30 April 2021










What then can I see about what I am like on the surface if I look at myself over and over again. My body is like those that are killed on the videos, I am also Latinx, but I am light skinned so I survive. I drive my car with a busted taillight, no bulb on the front, expired plates, but I do not get pulled over. I do not get shot. When I look over and over, it all starts to smell and there is a stench that this is all the same and nothing has changed and every photo of me is different but not at all of me. The camera depicts me but it is the image of a body and an image apparatus showing everything that is just after me, just beyond myself.